I’m really cranky right now.
Partly because I have a left over migraine from yesterday.
Partly because I’m stressed from work.
Partly because the holidays are coming and I’m not thrilled about that just yet.
Mostly though, because my sister is a big fucking twat.
Those of you who’ve been reading me since before my name change may remember my sister the crackwhore (as we affectionately refer to her), who used my identity to get arrested for prostitution, possession and paraphernalia. Not once, but FIVE times. She caused me a lot of pain and anguish and, quite frankly, embarrassment that continues to crop up even today, four years later.
I almost lost my foster care license when she was arrested the last time and I had to go get finger printed and write out a whole statement about how it wasn’t me. I had to go to court to appear and get the judge to actually change the charges into her name, from mine, but learned that day that I will always be an alias of hers and if I ever get into trouble and they run my name, she will show up as an alias of mine. AS IF! Last year I was denied a tax credit as a student because of my FELONY CONVICTION that she gave me for my birthday. Most recently, my boss told me that I’ll have to disclose the arrests and final disposition when I make my formal application to law school and there is a very good chance that I’ll be denied entry if I don’t have good proof that IT WASN’T ME! Finally, I learned that it will cost between $50 and $500 to expunge MY ARREST RECORD to have my name cleared. People, I’ve never been arrested, questioned, handcuffed (well, except for that one time with that one guy....)
Moving on...
Imagine how hard it was for me to take the high road tonight when she called to bitch about how my mom has ruined her life and the life of our youngest sister.
My mom and her husband had a gas bill in my youngest sisters name at sometime during the past five years (Apparently, and this isn’t the first time this has happened either, my parents had their gas shut off and rather than pay that bill, they had it turned back on in one of us kids’ names. I personally paid over $2,000 to various gas, lights, water, cable, newspaper and milk delivery bills when I turned 21. All of which were in my name, unknown to me of course.
Crackwhore is pissed and had the nerve to call my mom and bitch her out for ruining our youngest sisters credit. She demanded that my mom take steps to fix this problem so little sis can get gas in her own name (because her live-in-boyfriend has a bill and won’t pay it). Crackwhore called the gas company, posed as my little sis (she is good at posing), found out that since little sis was a minor when the bill was incurred, the only way to dispute it is to call the police and make a report. Of course, she called my mom and told her all of this then proceeded to bitch about how because of this, my mom is ruining the holidays for her and she just doesn’t know what to do.
Of course my mother and her husband should fix the problem. They should pay their fucking bills. They should stop using the people around them, including their children. They should grow the fuck up. However, they are adults and make their own choices. We all do. Someday it will all catch up to them.
In the meantime, it was so hard for me NOT to remind her of the little story about the pot calling the kettle black. Instead, I told her it wasn’t her business and to stay out of it. Then she had the nerve to ask me to call my mom or at least tell her how to handle the situation. I told her I wasn’t doing shit. Not my place and not my business. If it weren’t for my dysfunctional self inflicted brain fart idea that somehow I NEED TO SAVE THE WHOLE DAMNED WORLD AND MAINTAIN THE PEACE IN THE FAMILY AND PLAY THE MEDIATOR ALL THE TIME I’d wash my hands of the whole fucking lot of them.
I swear to God I was switched at birth and somewhere, some place, my real family is looking for me.